*Grinz*

On a post note, I've decided to strike off work from my list so as that I could be present for project work on Thursday. Aww… I left something like this on the boss’s desk when she was supposedly off for MC? No, Steven helped me put it there, he was chortling when he did it. I think he was just too intent on seeing the after effects. Yipee! That means I’m wiped off work!!!

*Ahem* The flowers are not supposed to be there, but I’m bored here mah? Oh yea, did I mention that work makes me exceptionally busy? Whew, all the CCA’s I’m missing, and the fact that I keep having to shovel the twerp’s lesson to some other non-existent time which co-incidentally wasn’t there? Heck, and then project work?!?!? Then the replacement lessons due to these public holidays? =.= Too many commitments, *tsk tsk* Seriously, you strike off one and your blood pressure will just lowers drastically. Wahahahaaaaaaaaa!!! I'm free!!! Darn, project tomorrow... =.=

Disappointment of sorts...

I walked out of my room at around 7am today and bumped into dad. He didn’t look as angry as I expect him to be, but I guess I can sense a hint of disappointment. We had a small discussion about my future plans and touched on some of the points on my repeated school absence.

I can sense his disappointment in me as we talked and I guess this was probably the worst thing I had done throughout the years to disappoint my parents to such an extent. I always seem to disappoint them time and again these days.

Dad finally accepts my explanation and the decision I have mapped out for myself, but I can sense something of sadness in him. I felt bad, seriously bad these days. I must have look ever so irresponsible with all these school missing, isn’t it? Missing school when I was supposed to be there for lessons, missing school when I was supposed to be there for projects??? Then those personal calls from the lecturers when I missed my exams? Doing everything supposedly wrong?

I guess I was already listed as one of those irresponsible project work mates now. *Bleah* Never present for anything I guess. Irresponsible student, irresponsible everything I guess, and great I love being irresponsible. You don’t even have to do anything now ei? Being responsible was such a great strain, making sure you did all your stuff on time, organizing this and that, and *blah blah* I guess after being responsible for so many years, you can finally afford to be irresponsible for once during your stink ass poly years and make everyone hates you.

GREAT! I just love being irresponsible! *Bleah* Everything just seems to be going wrong these days. I guess it’s too late to turn back now isn’t it? I just seem to be irritated at the mildest thing these days. Guess I will be attending school on a regular basis again, just frigging hate life, but I’ll guess this is the best I can do.

Blogging some other days, feeling trampled these days. Oh yea, let me repeat, I disappoint even the ants, I keep stamping on them till their juice oozes out, I’m a disgusting sucker in short.

Nuff’ said…

I'm dead

Something big cropped up while I’m at work today. Sis called me and yelled something regarding my attendance rate to me and that dad is jibbering non-stop at home.

I knew I’m dead, big time. I have always thought of the school system as something of one big joke. Like the part which they said a warning letter would be issued to your house if you met less than 90% of your attendance rate for one module. In fact, I waited a week and when nothing arrived, I laughed it off, till my attendance rate dropped to 85% did the school act. The cheee-keen school finally issued the frigging letter to my home.

Oh yea, did I just blog in the morning in my last post that dad doesn't know anything as yet? When you sate they didn't get to know anything, they always do? LIKE 5 HOURS LATER???

Something is gonna happen to me. I am penning my will now… As I talk, I can feel my bones dis..man..tli.. n..

CRAP! DID I JUST MENTION TROUBLE?!?!? Darn, I’ve just returned home from work and is blogging right now. Dad have gone out for the day, but I’ll be so dead tomorrow. Just so dead… *sigh* I knew it! The cat will always find a way out of the bag some day. I think I hate school a lot nowadays, a lot. It just doesn’t feel much like school anyway, it’s just too different from what was described… much too different.

JAVA! FUCK YOU!

I hate everything in the way and a lot of other things nowadays. I think I’m anti-social as well. I JUST HATE LIFE AS A WHOLE OK?!?!

I had 25 frigging minutes to blog before I rushed off. Basically, my life is so flunked up now that I can't really decribe it adequately in words. I guess my job really keeps me on my toes nowdays... That job is wound so tightly around my school timetable that the only free time I had was MIDNIGHT?!?!?! Like seriously, how do I even finish my tutorials???

On the whole, I flunk up a lot of stuff this term, I miss 6 straight hours of lesson yesterday because I overslept. Including the all so important java test the lecturer have beeen reminding us for weeks on end. I only woke up when Su called me and asked me whether I would be able to make it there alive. I took one glance at the time, and fell asleep again. I'm hopeless... very... For some wierd reason, I don't even felt fear... And in the end, the lecturer called me up and rescheduled me for a retest today. I was speechless, I felt bad, seriously bad...

I have yet to tell dad what I was planning to do this semester, I guess what he dosen't know won't hurt him as yet. So far, I'm slushing down the drain faster than I can comprehend. Seriously tired now. Some disputes really cost you a lot, you know?



It just seems so empty these days... Along these walkways...

Yahoo!!!

Whew, I made it late for Java lab today, which is gonna land me in deep soup. Not that I’m not drowning deep enough. *ahem* Anyway, I reached class in a rather grouchy mood to find that Yu Yan aka fishball had already helped me to sign my attendance list. Wahahahahaaaaaaaa, that means I scraped through the attendance this time.

Anyway, I just found something that caught my interest BIG time!!! YAHOO YAHOO YAHOO!!! The auctions site! Woot! I always thought that $$$ would just pile up naturally when you stayed on the computer the whole day instead of peeking out. (Yea, money for food, pool, *blah blah* all need $$$ one leh?!?) Which is well… true… the money is gonna wash off you faster than a catfish when you finally discovered the auctions site. I wonder what really took me so long, but then, *tsk* I’m hot on the tracks now.

The first thing I really searched for out of boredom when I clicked on the auctions link by accident was the fragging book called Memoirs of a Geisha. Which then lead to a bigger hoard… the movie tickets… and then the DVD!!! The DVD only cost $7 pi sai dollars including postage!!! Yea, I know I can get it cheaper in Malaysia ei and that I should value copyrights by buying the tickets *blah blah* ShUsH! Who really cares when you can watch the stuff over and over and over and over again in the comfort of your house with trazillions packets of snacks in front of a 37-inch TV? Like duh?

So now, I’m busy searching for nonsense that I might not need but might like to “try”… Talking of auctions, do you know that my bidding is actually horned to the optimum stage ever since sec 2? Like practice over thousands of items, with a trained timing?

WHAT?!?! YOU SPLURGE YOUR MONEY ON AUCTIONS SINCE THAT AGE?!?!

You might ask indignantly. Nah! Let me introduce you to the very place to horn your talents! Neopets auctions!!! The very place very competition is at its peak and only the Crème de Crepe manage to shine among the hundreds vying for one item. An item that might save you a few hundred thousands if you are lucky enough; or well, few thousands, anything to save you from paying the normal rates anyone might consider exorbitant.

I started Neopets now termed by everyone as childish in Sec one, with a 56k modem =.= Don’t ask, that time was horrendous, with the connection getting cut off every random second. Especially in auctions, where the fastest player get off the hook with their ultra-ultra fast connection and their exceptionally high refreshing rates to check the bids every second. Thus, I started off in the school lab until eventually, the teachers realized that even the AV students managing the school lab was playing neopets while assigning us seats in the lab. Supposedly the lab was accessible for all students to do their project work, but apparently, 50 of us squashed ourselves into the miniature lab to play the ‘wave’ that was spreading throughout the school. (I know it sounds stupid, it does, even to me now)

There, we started our teeny inchy weensy fight between our pets with bubble guns and snowballs. (It sounds even lamer here, but never mind…) Even primary school kids picked up the wave and my sis’s primary school teacher, with a Sir name of Chia owns a Chia. (Sounds normal, but he around 58 -.-, so shut it)

Oh mine?!?! A Chia?!?!

Oh yea, it was that bad, until teachers decided to start banning these sites in the school lab, even the libraries. So heck, all these passed and in fact, as time passes, we were finally granted high speed connection when poor dad finally lands up with around $200 of phone bills in one month considering we managed to get like 3 WebPages per minute? Minus the number of times it took to reconnect? Dad phoned up Singtel and start yelling something along the lines of ‘daylight robbery’ and the underpaid receptionist no doubt having dinner waved that off as normal and started something like this speech

“Cheap reception all like that one, reasonable one, you choose one mah? But then hor, we got one plan sibei fast pay pay around $60 you sure dun complain like a …”

*phone slams down at the other end*

And then dad was one of the first few starting on Starhub just to spite Singtel although Singtel’s rate were indeed cheaper. *tsk tsk* And you dare say adults don’t behave like kids?

Erm… Wait, where am I getting to? Yea, auctions, it was fun… Lol, blogging again when I’m free!!! Getting more cheerful now. Singaporeans still dig red underwear… Eww… some other day…

Eww… this post should be up two days ago, but I didn’t publish it. Guess I’ve seriously busy with school work (Just say say to make myself look hardworking you also believe =D) and work nowadays. (Only two more weeks before I’m free from work!!! 忍!!! For the sake of $$$) And heck, we are loaded with another project?!?! *Bleah* And it has something to do with Economics.

Jiaqi seems exceptionally eager to finish the project unlike the groups I’m grouped with in the past and heck, my other current group is also the same. The greatest time was when we dragged everything until two days before the project was due when we were in fact given two months to finish the crap. *Sarcastic look* We finished it anyway, so no frills now.

Last Friday seems exceptionally stressing; I was hogging through Java tutorials the day before Friday and trying to understand some of the e-studies available online when Nadz started complaining online to me about how slow archery was going. I agreed and *blah blah* and was online all the way till morning and heck, I fell asleep?!?!? And couldn’t wake up in time for lessons, so darn, in the end I only managed to make it on time for Data Communication. (barely) Aaarggghh....

Then, it’s meeting up with Qiu Han who sorta commented that I looked like some stressed pig, and that I looked thinner. (Do you know how fragging difficult it is to get fatter?) Guess I was just too stressed these days, but it’s great to have ya guys about sometimes, just great… =)

Sick

I am an exceptionally depressed corpse now as I peered at my computer screen. As usual, I don’t manage to understand much of the gibberish that was being dished out in Java lecture today. OK? Maybe 1%? Happy? I’ve been reading through the Java online tutorials these days and I guess it was an itchy teensy weensy bit of help, but somehow, I get the sniggering feeling that I will not pass this course and even if I do so, with what grades?!?

So anyway, did I mention I was grouchy? Yea, so now, I peering at our school’s counseling website and having second thoughts on whether I do need counseling say… At least to decrease my level of boredom? But then, heck, there’s only one helpline available at this time and awww… It’s the Crisis Intervention & Suicide Prevention Service hotline…

That leds a boring me to wonder what boring conversation I would initiate with the boring sog at the other end…

Me: Hello, Is this the Suicide Prevention Service Hotline?

BS: Yes, do you need any help? Having any suicidal thoughts? PLEEEAASSSEEE CCCAAALLLMM DDOOWWWNN AANNDD TEEELLL MEEE YYOOUUURR PPRRROOOBBLLEEEMM!!!!

Me: *sigh* I decided to jump off the building now because some cranky monster called Java had forced a program on me

public class Die{
public static void main (String[] args){

System.out.println (“Jump of building”);

}
}

What shall I do? What?

BS: Calm down…. Dearrryyy, you just have to change the program, modify a few codes here and there to lead a fulfilling life with…

*ahem*

(Back to normal scenario)

What the hell am I typing now… Weird… Really weird… =.= I think I really need my sleep now… =p Even my program is wrong, I think. Crap, blog more tomorrow...

Seriously Red

Woot! I’m back again!!! I’m really sorry for the lack of updates as I’ve been seriously busy with work lately. On a post note, Mum have also been complaining about my work schedule, but then I guess it will be sorted out soon as I will only be working for one month!!!

Heck, and my pay is seriously low, like duh? It’s even lower than the pay dished out by MacDonald’s in my school. Apparently, the female boss was asking me during the belated interview, do you know the starting pay for a department store?

“Errr… around $4?!?!”

And before I could even made any further comments, she had seized up that sentence and said:

“Yea, so your pay would be $4 per hour including CPF!”

There seem to be an air of triumph when she announced the “including CPF” part and I strived to work out what it meant when I realized that CPF consists of 20% of your pay, and a quick mental calculation gives me the figure that I will only be getting $3.20 per hour.

That teaches me not to be such a dumb ass in future, and I will have to add “without CPF” after all my sentences.

And man, do you know that I’m working in the Fashion department, and there’s nothing I sucks more at than Fashion. I’m probably the last slog one would ask for advice when it comes to choosing clothes.

So heck, now I’m stuck with a horrendous pile of pants and the *sigh* bras and countless other clothing. I hate to say this, but women are seriously a terrible species to behold when it comes to clothes…

On a brighter note:

Hui Ting had told me that her department sold red underwear and I thought she was joking. I mean, seriously, in the random soap dramas that are mostly aired on channel 8, you always see the person yelling that he won Toto blah blah, was exceptionally lucky in business and they promptly flashed their red undies and start chuckling.

So I was crapping that she should probably wear red underwear for luck during her exams to score distinctions and she started laughing.

Singaporeans really dig this stuff, I swear.

New Year's Pile of Bullshit...

Click on it to see lah!!! I'm purposely making it small to toture your eyes, but then *shrugs*.